2nd to last day at USC

I'm so stoked. I really hate this place. I am really nervous about everything, but sometimes it's a good thing to force yourself to have butterflies. I'm hoping to have many more butterflies in my future.

The only thing that I'm really actuallly concerned about is the fact that my car payment is due and I don't really have it. At all. Oh yeah, and my cell phone bill is still due.

I'll make it work.

I'm going to have more free time to be a human, so that will be nice. Ronnie and I had a lovely evening on Friday (my birthday). I got the giggles because it was nice to just be taken out to have a good time. There were no alterior motives, nothing was expected from me in return except to have a good time. It was nice.

I feel like I'm about to embark on one of the most important journeys my life has to hold for me. It's going to be rough, I'm going to be stressed, I'm going to freak out, but I'm going to make it. I'm confident in that. Failure is not an option and not in my mind. I'm about to become Shelley Clark, Hair Stylist. I couldn't be happier. My life is going really well right now. I have a good man, a good family, and good friends. I'm starting to take care of myself like I need to be taken care of, and I'm going to have more time for myself. I actually have some little hobbies I've been working on. Everything is trying to fall into place, and I need to just let it happen. I need to stop trying to force everything to be "right". Just because it's not the "right" I have in my mind all wrapped up in a bow, doesn't mean it's not what I need.

I'm excited to learn more about myself and what I'm capable of. I haven't felt really challenged in a while.

Here's to what's coming next.
Cheers!
-Remes