Why don't you come to your senses? You've been out running fences for far too long.

I'm thinking that after I get my car in line I may take a trip by myself... I'm thinking Shawnee National Park. I've never seen the Garden of the Gods and that just doesn't seem right since I live so close. I think it will be good for me to get out of here for a couple of days and just be alone and unreachable. I'll have to buy/borrow a tent. I know how to pitch a tent and build a fire. I should survive. Ha. We'll see. I need to find my camping knife. I'm sure it's with the rest of my camping stuff. I have so much going on in my mind it is unreal. My thoughts are in relentless pursuit of my sanity. I need to finish my book and send it out into the world. It is very close to the end. I guess I've never been very good at endings. It has been my companion for so long that it is hard to let go of it. I know it's for the best that it is finished and sent out into the world, but that doesn't make it any less scary. Well, I'm off to do more big girl things today. May the stars keep you.

Life sure is funny.

Change always happens. I don't do well with change. Currently rearranging some things... It's hard when things end. It's harder when you know it's for the best and it still stings with such a force that it makes you sick. I need sleep. I need air. I need a vacation. I just want to head to the mountains and stay. I love the mountains so much. When everything ended, I looked up jobs in state parks. I would miss my cat too much. I would miss my clients too much. I guess I'm just stuck here for a while. Maybe I can plan an escape soon.