I am so tired of shitty days I could scream.
I fucked up my eye today and I hope its better by tomorrow. I really don't have the resources to go to the eye doctor. However, its still blurry and I got something in it like 12 hours ago.
I am so unhappy. I'm fairly confident that I am now dancing across the line of social drinker and alcoholic. I am so scared I'm going to end up like my dad. I feel like everything is out of control right now and I don't know what to do. I simply don't know.
My car keeps fucking up. I now have to buy another goddamn tire for the stupid thing. I'll have to wait until Friday and hope I get paid a decent amount. Everything is pissing me off.
I overheard my roommate talking to her friend about the value of the house since they're planning on moving in the next year and a half/two years. That would have been nice to know.
Maybe it's me. I'm the common denominator in all of these equations of crap that goes on.
Maybe I'll find some peace tonight when I close my eyes. Hopefully dreams stay away and let me linger in the quiet and the darkness tonight. I can't take anymore dreams. Dreams just break your heart.
I'm not saying I want an easy life. Just one that's not so damn hard.
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