For the first time in a long time, I am actually scared.

On Wednesday, my boss sprang on me that we have four "mandatory" meetings next week from 7:45-9:15. I'm supposed to be in school by 8... I can't miss anymore school as I am already over my contract time, but if I do not go to these meetings, I will not have a job by Thursday.

I have been backed into a corner.

Either option I choose, I am totally screwed. I honestly don't know what I can do. I do know that I will not go down without a fight, so I guess starting tomorrow I'll make as many phone calls as I can to try and save my job. I'll also check on my application that I put in.

Why does life have to be so damn complicated?

Grr.

I'm feeling fairly frustrated this evening.

Today was good, though. I won an updo competition this morning and sold 3 new lines at work. I also did two haircuts I can be proud of. =) I have a test in the morning on my nail chapter... bleh. I really ought to just go to bed. I know if I go out for one drink, it may turn into more. Yes, I think I will just lay low this evening.

Well, now that that's decided I can move onto more important things floating through my brain. I have to do a 60 second video to apply for the Matrix program. I'm slightly nervous about this. I'm not sure what I can get out in 60 seconds without talking so fast that you can't understand me. Ha! I have really never wanted something so badly before. It really is a once in a lifetime experience and a one in a million shot. Well, I guess it's technically 6 in a million. I'm down with the better odds! I'll be working on that for the next few days, I immagine.

In any case, I do plan on traveling as much as possible next year. I can't believe I'm graduating in just a few months. It's exciting/scarey/a dream come true. I really do need to remember to stop and be thankful for all of the wonderful things in my life. Well, I believe it's finally time for me to study some more.

Wish me luck!
-Remes

Colorado

This last journey to Colorado was pretty amazing. I really feel like I learned a lot about and really connected to myself. I hiked a freaking mountain for goodness sake (the picture is the actual mountain I hiked). Not to mention the fact that I swam in a huge lake. For a lot of people that's not really a big deal, but with the whole phobia of water that I have going on- I think it means a lot. I have never felt so comfortable in my own skin as I did when I was there.

Thankfully I brought some of this home with me. I feel better about myself on the whole. I still have my quirks, but they make me who I am. For the first time in a very long time I like who I am. I just need to stay focused and keep doing what I love.

Goodnight, world. Peaceful dreams.
-Remes

Matrix designed something just for me.

Seriously. They have a program that students can apply for that is an all expenses paid six month adventure to different salons and shows. All I would have to do if I was chosen is write about my experiences. Um, hello?!?!? That could not be more perfect for me. The combination of writing, hair, and travel is almost too much to contain! I heard about this in the morning and have been in the best mood all day at even just the prospect of being able to possibly go on this journey. It would be so perfect! I'm not sure what I'm going to do after I graduate anymore and would love this opportunity so very, very much. I've been considering a time zone change for some time now and to be able to travel to so many different places in six months would be amazing. I have nothing holding me back from going.

This could not be more perfect for me!
*Cheers!
-Remes